Busy till i neglected this blog for weeeks! Sorry.. I just dont feel like expressing out abt myself lately. Coz i rather keep it to myself coz nobody really do care anyways...coz one by one will just leave me unlike what they had promised before. I guess that is how society works these days.

Anyways, I am thinking of deleting this whole blog.But there are sooo many memories in here. It just seems so wasted if i delete it away. I scared that someday I might forgot whatever shits that keeps me going on. So many important dates that carry specific memories in it. So how could i have the heart to delete it just like that? i mean, someday, it could also makes me realise how much I have change and grow to become a better me. I suppose that was what makes me carry on updating this blog. As much as I wanted to blog out my thoughts and rants, I need to 'filter' out bit by bit just to make sure that it is not tooo personal. I know, my blog,my say. But then, i don't want many people to know what i am doing. they prolly wanna know just to be nosy and see how much i fall or how much i didnt get thru in life or how unhappy with my life right now. The society makes me think how ugly anyone could judge me even without knowing the WHOLE part of my story. Geez... Many things are going thru in my life. I think i should just update whenever i feel the need to. If there is any occasions, i might or might not update due to my own reasons.

ah wells.heading back to my bed as i am getting drowsy. How I miss my old loved ones when things just DONT CHANGE unlike now. But i still cant accept no matter how much i try to convince myself to. I guess i am still the stubborn kid like i used to. hehehe..

XOXO...