All I know was that I pretty much enjoyed myself. Colleagues wished me, family gave me 2 special items which I totally adore, my bestf Iylia celebrated with me in advanced since I am the one that have to work during my bday. It's kinda tradition for both to celebrate on the day or advance. Belated is ok, but we rarely do that. Hahaha.

As for this year is much more supecial, coz I have turned to be legal to do anything i wanted to....As long as parents agree with it. Hehehe.Just hope they give me much more freedom. That's all.. I'm gonna make truckloads of promises to myself this time. Which is:

to be a better muslimah, respect my parents & elders, be more independent lady, work out more often(i surely will), be a good friend, responsible lady, work extra hard for final yr (insyaAllah) and be a good listener without judge or anythg, change to be a better me without putting down on others, be more wise in who to trust and vice versa, respect my loved ones' decision and perspectives, and improve myself from the old me. InsyaAllah i can.

My 20th wasn't that good. As I've been through more downs and challenges. I've lost a person I really rely upon, whom I've known for 4 years plus. I know, it might be hard for me to accept and stand strong sometimes, but I'm not gonna make that memories to pull me down for my better future. And somehow, I've been doing much more better and I find more happiness in myself. Really, I am so thankful to Allah for open up my eyes to the reality.

He is just part of my life story, we might or might not see each other again. Well, that's for Allah to decide our path. What I should do now, is just accept which ever path Allah has decided for me. And I promised myself that no one can make me sad or take away my happiness without my concern. I just don't wish to get into the same story anymore. I just want something new to begin.

With someone new whom can give me happiness and love me as much as i love myself. InsyaAllah i can. I will only have commitments as long as that man can commit himself to Allah, family and other priorities in his life. As much as what I said, it sound as if I had many experiences from men. Well, that's not true. I've got many experiences from a friend who had taught me soo many things based on what he had experienced. And from many others, I've learn basically from their stories so that I would not get myself trapped into that kind of situations. InsyaAllah.

Ah wells, I am also grateful and blessed to still have my lovable friends who have never stop shower me with full of love.

Adios...