Sometimes, i feel that crying is just another way of telling myself that it's ok to let it out. It's ok not to be ok. At some point, when everything just doesn't go your way, even the tiny error or crap can make you pissed.
I keep reminding myself, to always stay strong,as nobody really cares if i'm not alright. Everybody expects to be happy and not having probs that can lead to breaking down. At some point of down turn, i would cry and try my very best to convince and confide my heart that things will get better and be stronger to face it.
I tried my best,seriously. I feel that things just don't wanna go my way and make me more screwed up which telling me that i can't amend things anymore. Even when i'm not physically crying, my heart does, constantly reminding me to stand strong for myself and not letting anyone knows that i am weak. Cause I wanna be the reason why they are happy. If I am sad, how am I suppose to cheer them up?haiz.
Ya Allah,kuatkanlah hati ini..Amin...
