So far I had not done much of raya outing as I am pretty busy. Well, Im better of this way as I wanna take things in a positive side. Since many things are not going my way, I am trying my best to stay on the positive side and not to let any dramas pull me down and not standing back up again. I will try to have more reasons to be happy,insyaAllah.

And I am doing fine. I guess it's good to pretend to be fine so that I don't have to explain my own feelings to anyone who don't really care. I just find it hard to knw who is real and who isn't. Hmm, As for now, I'm trying to keep quiet frm NSboy cause I don't wanna get close with him yet. I know to what extend is my strength and stability. There are so many things I need to do. And I'm afraid my own negligence or actions might hurt someone. Especially someone new. I'll just keep it slow and see how far he can tolerate with me as a friend. Hahahaha.

Recently someone I loved was being sent to NUH due to moderate asthma that hasn't been effective on medication. We were so worried at the EMD cause it took so long to get things settled. And frankly speaking, I don't really FAVOUR on NUH treatments. Cause most of the time, it turn out the outcome of the patients are deteriorating. And I used to have someone that had passed away there. Hence, it took me guts to really overcome the shit. Alhamdulillah, it had subside before noon. Thanks Allah. I really regretted for not sending her off to somewhere much better standard of care. But the main thing is, nothing serious was being reported and hence, doesn't need any hospitalisation. The Jr doc were astounded when she found out that I know medical terms when I mentioned it. Hehehe. Hence, found out that I am a student nurse. Which also means she couldn't hide any infos abt this person from me.