I really am in doubt. Maybe I am not gonna belong to you. Somehow, it is still so uncertain to say that. Hence, I don't think it is a feeling at all. It is just a saying. Just to make my heart function and know that someone better like U to come. But then, it doesn't really feel anything.
I just hate myself for being too judgemental when it comes to knowing guys. Kay, it is still too early to feel the existence. So I'm just gonna go with the flow and making sure that my brain follows my heart along. But then, how come am I expecting so much from U? Like I want u to treat me like how nzm treated me last time... I know, different guys will do it differently. But why am I not that amazed or having butterflies in the stomach? Hmm,maybe it's still too early to see some signs. Or maybe there isn't any at all.
What I can reflect now is, I am comparing someone whom I barely know. Cause U seems to be like any other guys I knew who just come in a way to get entertainment from me. FYI: i am not a damn clown or a toy kay. I am just looking for someone who can really make me fall in love with every day. K, nvm, it is still too early to talk abt feelings, seriously. Let's just wait and see k,F...=)
I really dont wanna hope that U can prove me wrong abt my own perspectives with guys like ur 'species'. I don't want to put any hope coz it will only lead to disappointment.
