Somehow, I felt miserable and broken again. I've come to my sense that I am doing more harm than good to my own beloved friends. I would be glad if I am the cause for them to be happy. But if it's the other way round, I would be very disappointed with myself for causing hurts emotionally. It somehow makes me feel like a pathetic Loser for creating this disaster. I don't want to play that kinda games.
I just don't hurt only U. But I realised that I hurt others too. Hence, that is why I am creating this post. I felt like a burden to everyone and causing them more harm than good. I am sincerely sorry for creating such problems. I really don't have such intentions. It is probably because of my own fucking attitude, that leads to these kinds of prob since the beginning. I had probably been a selfish friend to a kind hearted soul and being stubborn towards them. Maybe I was being spoil brat since I was a kid as I was the only child. To be frank, I don't like to be a spoilt child as it looks disgusting. However, there are many different terms of 'spoilt' here.
Since I had caused more harm and hurt to U, I will go away from U as I had promised to myself that, whenever I am the main cause of U getting hurt, I shall disappear frm your book. I don't want to see sad face frm U just because I am the main one to be blamed. I am the main one that cause U to get hurt due to U being angry at me. I don't give a fuck if U still care about me. Somehow, I will be grateful of what U had just did even tho I don't really deserve the most of it.
And here, the story ends. Sorry if I can't help U. Sorry if I am the main one to cause U hurt.
Sincerely, Syfq.
