I just despise people, or my loved ones to ignore me fully and appeared back whenever he needs and pretend like I never did text or called him before that. Without even a 'sorry' to me, he could just regard things like it's normal. I don't mind if sorry wasn't mentioned, cause I will always forgive that person. But I just don't like it to be repeated again like it never did happened. Like, he never learn his own mistakes.
U keep on saying I never learn my mistakes. But what abt U? Did U ever learn? Scrap that away, U even went missing or silent when I replied your message. What do U think I am? U make me look stupid. I feel like I am waiting or expecting something out of U. I don't want anymore dramas frm U. Somehow, I feel like I am just a burden compare to being a closed friend to U. I don't know what I could do to make U see that what U did was wrong.
U said I was paranoid when U didn't give any reply or being too silent. Well, I assumed that U know why I am this way. Actually, I am not paranoid. I am just worried abt your where abouts. Who the fuck wouldn't be worried if U expect a person's reply for the whole day, and ended up, the person is just doing fine when U got back the reply at night! That friend isn't a TRUE FRIEND if he/she isn't worried or concerned. Besides, with so many violence incidents happening, how could I still be calm and not worried about ur whereabouts? Use your retarded mind,pls? Maybe, someday, I will give U a test. U will know what my plan would be.
U make me having this mindset again about U. U are the one that is making me hating U again. Pls don't let me start this kinda shits again. I don't want ugly things anymore. I am slowly bury it back down. Cause I don't wish to have a friend that seems to be my own enemy that have been giving bad attitude towards me.
With me being busy with all stupid shits, at least I try to manage to squeeze out some time to text or give U a call when there is a need to. Cause I don't want U to feel like I am neglecting U as a friend. Besides that, I try to be there for U so that U won't feel lonely or have nobody in this damn world to talk to. But when I try to be there for U, U just loose the chance by taking it lightly and for granted. Like I know it doesn't matter if U wanna care about it or not, but do show some understanding towards me. U make me really really feel like an idiot who have no better things to do and getting people's attentions through this way.
And U know what, I will stop the game and just let U play it alone. Cause I knw, U will always want to win in the game after all. Get a life. ;)
