Come to think back again, I am really tired of waiting and thinking of somebody that make me worried shit but end up, the person is having jolly fun without thinking how I felt about his whereabouts. I am exhausted of false expectations, thinking that somehow, we will be reconciled and forgive each other again,someday. Yes we do that, but maybe, we are just tired of all the fights and misunderstandings and bullshits. Hence, we tend to be in silence so that no body's feelings are hurt. But the silence this time, are making me reflect with how I can make things better for myself.

If U know how worried I am for your whereabouts, U shouldn't be doing this way towards me in the first place.Well, if this is part of your punishment, I'll be glad to make it up to U soon. U have damaged my mindset about U. U have made me feel worthless even though I know nobody are worthless at all. U have made me feel the feelings I have never feel for any friends. Not saying that I can fall for U like how it used to back then. But it makes me feel the regret of having U around. More to the negative feelings I kept. I keep on taking a step back when I am hating U. Instead, U are hating me while U regard me as what U called, good friends.

I know, that this kinda thing can never last. But the more I tried not to think about it, the more I felt like it's drifting. I bloody much don't give a damn as I know, my heart is at critical state of damaged. I pretend, we are still friends even though now we are like enemies that had been created since back then. I don't know if I am for real anymore. I am curious with this kind of friendship I'm having. What kind of connection do we both have to make the friendship stronger whenever each time some kind of obstacles are tearing us apart?

Don't resent me if I'm gone someday. Cause I'll be gone before U even realise that. And before U know it that it's time to go, it will be too late to regret.