I hate the feeling of being guilty when I don't know about the situation my loved ones are going through. It just shows how much I didn't care for them as much as how they did. I am pretty sad that I didn't do my part well to be there for them.

Especially if they know that I am going to be there no matter what, they still wants to hide it from me or either way, I find out myself by someone else instead from themselves. If they know I am gonna be there for them, why they wanna hide it or waiting for me to ask them if everything is okay? Probably, they think that I will not bother much to help or maybe they just don't think I am important to them at all. If U are unhappy with something, U should just let it out without me asking about it since I can't read people's mind in the first place. If I am asking, that shows how much I can either piss U off as I might annoyed U. But if I didn't ask and U didn't tell, how am I supposed to know that U are doing fine or not? U expect me to understand U, but why U wanna put me in a difficult situation when I didn't know anything about it?

Lemme get this straight, U need to share something. But U didn't cause I didn't ask from U. Or also because I didn't know about U having something else. And then, U go and tell someone else about it like as if he could do much better in helping U out. How could U do this to me.


thanks a bunch. I love U so much.