I shouldn't take things for granted...

When a person has been pondering about something, that person will certainly feel loads of pressures. Especially when a person knew that he can't rely on someone whom is having much complicated situation than he do. And when things are getting out of hand, he tends to explode out the things he can't stand it. And when he does, someone who he can rely would actually gave him a wake up call to say that he is still damn pretty lucky to have loved ones around him.


When U can't think properly, U tend to do things out of control(mentally) and thinking that the best way is to gave a smack on the face as to make sure that U're stepping back to the reality world. I know the situation U are going thru is much more complicated than mine. But I think I shouldn't really rely on U unless there is a need for me to. Hence, I am trying hard to give U the strength that U really need as U fall flat down,again. Other than that, it's my responsibilty to make sure that U and my other loved ones are happy. Besides that, the only thing I could give is my pray to be heard from Allah that my loved ones will be doing just fine.

I know I shouldn't expect anything in return from you. I can't understand myself on why I can't try to understand your situation this time round. I feel like I am betraying myself. I don't know why I am trying hard to get some attention from you when I know that I can actually depend on myself and not on you. I can't understand why I am being hard on you again. I am sorry to make things difficult for you. It brings me pain when I knew that I am not trying to understand you. Maybe, I am trying too hard till it turns out the otherway round. I think my sorry doesn't really work anymore as you've tired of hearing them from me.