Hi again. Yeap it's the new number. 2010.

Somehow, I feel like it is just a normal day that I have to go through again. I didn't feel the excitement to celebrate it with my own way. Lemme recap of what 2009 had made through the story of my own life. So bear with it, it would be super super super and neverending super lengthy! Hahah

2009,
Anotha crucial year that I have to go through. I have to seat for my anotha Mission that can change my entire journey for the next upcoming years. The year that I have to endure more pains and shit in order to succeed for the better. Besides that, I seemed to be not myself most of the time. I shed too many tears due to certain reason that happened. Many things have took place in a blink of eye. Time flies very fast when there was a need to be sacrificed. Made new friends along the way. Lose few friends along the way as well. However, from what I knew, I've learned. I've learned many things from the stories I heard. The mistakes I did. The choices that I have to make. I've learned to be more mature and accept things for what and how they are. Along the way, I've learned that some things are just too depressing when certain things does took place even without me expecting it. I've learned that certain things does not always happen for a reason. It might have a reason. But maybe it is oblivious for us to take notice. Worst come to worst, I missed my granny and granddad terribly. I have to really endure the 'pain' in order to focus in my Mission. Other than that, I've lost a best friend,Nzm, while I was still studying for the Mission. I felt that I've lost a priceless friendship that has always been there for me all through my N. But I knew, this lost might end up to be something new for me in the upcoming days. I've wake up from my depression with all the encouragements that I've got frm my loved ones when I really am in need. I am truly glad that they have always been there for me although they have to tolerate many nonsensical attitude from me. I am hoping to be always be there for them no matter rain or shines whenever they are in need. InsyaAllah.

for 2010,
I made a vow to myself to do everything with the best that I can put in. My resolutions are simple. To make my parents and granny n granddad proud.Enter into the poly with my dream course. Other than that, I wanna try my best to control my temper and be as kind and try to understand the person's situation... Be a gd daughter,Muslimah, student, friend,girlfriend, cousin, aunt(?), and angel to my love one. I vow to myself to do the best in everything I can and learn from others that nothing is impossible without efforts being put in. Besides that, I wanna do my very best in my studies! Wahahaha! So that I can look out for a brighter career in the future! However words are much simple than action taken,aren't they? And yes, making it to action will take more effort than a person can imagine. But I have to admit that 2010 is not the year that I am really looking forward to. I don't really feel like I am really going to look forward to enjoying to the fullest. Nevertheless, a person should always look on the bright side and think positive,don't they? I felt that I really have to face much more new obstacles that are more complicated than 2009. I am going to face any challenges and obstacles that are ahead of me no matter how bad it will be. InsyaAllah. I know that I must be strong both physically and mentally in order to face any challenges and obstacles that are written by Him. Because, I knw that there will always be Hikmah to every obstacles He make us go through.

And addition to anotha number, it tells me that we are actually growing. I can't deny that I truly miss my childhood moments! Like seriously,when I was around 11 yrs old, I used to picture myself of going into my dream schools and trying my super hard to get the best. In the blink of an eye, here I am. Already 18 and doing what I was supposed to picture myself doing back then. Soon, I realised that how time really flies very fast and how I wished to do better back then although I knw it will be stupid to think that way. Sheesh. Hence, I've learned that I should always cherish something that are priceless no matter what it takes.

Merry New year! Hope to have a blissful and prosperous year for 12 month! Hehehe. Enjoy and forget the bitter ones. Forgive the sinners in order to be forgiven by others. Thousands of apologies from me if I really offended all of you if I did it with or without any intentions at all. Many thanks for entering into my story life that has been a mundane kind.

Oh, and I have supecial dedication for those who make differences to my life.
Parents; thousands of thanks from me for taking care of me. The only ones that could really tolerate and understand me for 18 yrs of my life. Nurture me to be who I really am right now. Due to parent, I am grown to be much more independent young lady. Forgive me for giving u guys so much pain,parent. I knw that loads of my mistakes were just too pain and bitter for U guys to swallow. With or without any intention for doing so, I hope to make each of the mistakes as my lessons of life. I hope that we will be strong together as a family no matter what.

Bestf; the one and only 'minah' that I can really look out for. The one and only true buddy that I've known since primary sch moment. Thanks for always make my day as bright as the sun. Who always tolerate my nonsensical for 24/7. Thanks for motivate and encourage me to study. Thanks for all the study dates we did for my Mission... You are my melody to my laughter,okay! Which also means that I love u much much! We will go for the picnic soonish okays! As I am the 'guardian' to U, I hope to always be there for U whenever U really in need. Both physically and mentally. We will discover and touring arnd Singapore soon afta I got my driving licence,okay! Promise we won't get our direction wrong this time round. Hehehe. If I did offended U indirectly or directly, forgive and forget abt it okays! Let our friendship be strong no matter what. =)

Cty; thanks for being there for me whenever I need the most. I know U can succeed in fashion industry. Make me proud with all the dream U wanna achieve. Cheer up and forget abt the bitter past and treasure and cherish the sweet moments. Apology frm me for giving U much pain and for making U infuriates me.

Irah; my evil 'twin' that has been a pain in the butt of mine! Altho U gave me all the pain, I knw and feels U that this is who and what U really are. I always try my best to see anotha side of U that has always been pure and sincere. Achieve Ur goal and study hard in this coming year. Discover many new things. Make your parents and family proud. I'll pray for your best ans succeed in everything U do.

Nad sis; a young lady whom always makes me laugh through MSN. A person that I really can talk things out whenever I had doubt about life. She and I would share gossips about boys and things around us. I hope U find your anotha half by this yr,N!! Hehehe. I love U okay! I am sorry for offended U either directly or indirectly.It's not my intention for doing so. U've made me open my eyes wider to the world that is surrounding me. Thanks for teaching me the real world that I've been wanting to discover. See U soon,Ms TB! U knw what I meant! hehehe.

Nzm; altho you're no longer here for me anymore, I still wanna type this out. I am very thankful for things that you've done for me. I am glad to get to know U. I appreciate all your advices that U gave me. Thanks for wake me up whenever I am down. Thanks for entering into my life for 2 yrs. I hope that U will make your family and mom proud for your achievements and goal. Moved on from the past and U can really see the new U. Thanks for motivate and encourage me for my Missions and see my anotha side of me. We used to be best friend. But now it does end even though I don't wish to. I hope U will be much more happy with your life and make your future girlf the happiest girl. Don't hurt if U really wanna treasure that person. Cause the person is just too priceless to be let go off. I'll pray for u and the family for a good health and wealth. InsyaAllah.

Granny; the heroine of my life besides my mom. The lady that discovered me right after my first cry. It has been a year ever since her departure. Always be in my heart till my last breath. She sees me cry, laugh,angry and sad. She understood me pretty well like I am her priceless stone. I have always missed her no matter where I was. I missed her terribly and the only thing I can do is to pray that she would be fine at there. InsyaAllah. Even if I cry with the tears of blood, this might not change anything and she will not be alive back. Miss U,nek =(

There are many more people I wish to say. Especially the class of 5 Aspire. U guys rawk my sock and world! We will remain intact no matter what happens. Hopefully each of us will go to poly with the dream course we want. Rawk On guys! \m/

Besides that, for the ones that I jst got to knw such as Amani, Farah,Suzy and many more, I hope that we could do more things together and rock the world together! Work rocks when U guys are there! U crack loads of jokes that can make me the happy person! U people are the sexay one!! heheh. Especially farah. Hehehe! <3

Syafiqah<3 <3