Somehow, I feel there is an empty feeling deeply inside me. Ever since I decided to leave U and your world, nthg seems to be right again. Tears will be the one that accompany me to bed every night. I vowed myself to be strong. I vowed myself to moved on. I vowed myself to pretend that nthg like this ever happens.
Somehow, I am more to phobia than fear. I am phobia of making friends with guys. I am phobia to fall for them. I am phobia that they will certainly leave me for good. I don't wish to ponder about this kinda stuffs as this seems to be a never ending issue and an unsolved story for me.
As stubborn as I am, I always fight with my own feelings,mind and heart when this comes. I will either start to meddle this heart whenever it is just about to be heal. I start to put on high hopes onto unexpected things to really happen. I am being labelled as "daredevil" and "stoned headed" by some because I don't really listen to their advices. Not saying that I can't comprehend things easily. However, I can like any one else does. Somehow, the more people 'provokes' me, the more I wanna try to find out and disobey them. Not saying I am being rude. But I prefer to do things in my own way and to prove to them that I'm right. Maybe I prefer to do things by my own kinda way. Thousand of apologies for those whom I hurt a lot.I don't wish to think about it for now. Moreover, it's seems not to be in my priority list at all.
Somehow, I started to sense that someone would give me weird stares as if I owe them a living. It makes me feel uncomfortable. I wanna change myself for the better as I know, my age number is increasing as the yrs goes by. Hence, I tried to change myself to be more friendlier to anybody no matter who and how they really are. But somehow, I feel that I had made a wrong move again. I am not sure yet tho. But I wish that Allah will answer the question that is tangle in my mind. I don't wanna be such ignorant person like hw I used to be.
Syafiqah
20First
Lil missy @ NP
Ignorant,NOT arrogant
Imma laughing box :B
I don't get easily impressed.
Staying strong and high
So be nice,cause I bite.
WiseWords
Happiness last longer than sadness.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Cherish your loved ones before too late.
Things last longer when U least expect it.
Pain makes U become stronger.
Always plan nothing
Smile is another way to show love.
Always expect nothing
Obstacles made u stronger in long run.
Don't judge the person by the story U heard.
Laughter is the smile that burst
