Wish that someday, people will know and understand the real reason why I don't wish to have someone who could steal my fragile heart for now. Not saying that i am being fussy or being daft about love life. But the real fact that I don't wish that someday I would hurt the guy who succeed in entering into my heart. The real reason of doing this way is because I am afraid to be too committed in love. I wish to have a person who can shower me with all the love. However, I am afraid that I fail to return back the love to the person. That is the real reason of me being ignorant whenever a guy got my number. Either way, I might end up not contacting them. I'm not tryna say that I am being a-too-expensive-to get type of girl. I am not an anti-social type of girl either. In fact, I do love making friends with anybody no matter what type of people they are. I certainly enjoy making friends with guys especially when I am the type of girl that are mixed ard with guys when I was still a small kid. I feel that I can easily understand them better than I understand girls. That's probably the reason why I don't really have a lot of girl friends. The guys are actually fun to be with and easy to talk abt things that are not related with feelings. However, some guys that I knew, wanted to be more than a friend. Hence, sometimes I feel that it is complicated to directly turn them down or stay away from them. I don't understand why they wanted that way though. Eventhough they have explain things or their reason for wanting to be with me.
I am afraid that I will hurt his heart as he is the one that has my attention fully if I am not there for him whenever he needs me. I am afraid to hurt the heart that might be fragile especially him who had caught my heart and unlock the bitter side of me even without me realising it. I hate to hurt the feelings or heart that is really my special one even though he might not be the eternity love for me at that time. Even for a small moment that is special to him or me, I don't wish that he to be hurt by this self-centered person that he thinks that I am The One who is right for him. I would rather let him love someone else that loves him to the fullest and deepest that I might not able to shower him with the love. I don't wish him to be hurt and blaming me for making him despair and hurt after he had unlock my heart. I don't wish to make him hurt by any of my mistakes or wrongdoings and my laser words. I will know that someday I might hurt the guy who might enter my heart even without me having the slightest intention to do so.
Maybe someday, with all the lessons that I have learn from friends, I might able to avoid getting him hurt. Although it is true that nobody will never makes a mistake or being a perfectionist. If God will, I might be able to shower all of my heart to the guy that might enter my life or heart even if it is for a short while or eternity. Altho I prefer to last long with the one and only, and not hurting myself or him a lot, I know that this is my Fate that has been written by Him. I just wish that someday, somebody will understand me and cherish me like how I wished to cherish him with all my heart. It takes a lot of effort to make relationship works. It takes more than lovey dovey words to describe each other. It should always comes from sincerity and purity. I know that person might not even do so even though I do.
And someday, I wish I know who he is that would caught and unlock my fragile heart to teach me more abt this thing call love. I someday hope that I am not going to fantasize abt 'he' like how I used to dream of when I was still naive. I someday hope that he is not the one that I am going to hurt the most especially he is the one that unlocks my fragile heart.
Sheesh. What a thought I have..... I'll pray this would happen and the heart will be cured and not broken. please don't ask me again whether i hve bf or not..i hate to answer the qtn
Syafiqah
20First
Lil missy @ NP
Ignorant,NOT arrogant
Imma laughing box :B
I don't get easily impressed.
Staying strong and high
So be nice,cause I bite.
WiseWords
Happiness last longer than sadness.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Cherish your loved ones before too late.
Things last longer when U least expect it.
Pain makes U become stronger.
Always plan nothing
Smile is another way to show love.
Always expect nothing
Obstacles made u stronger in long run.
Don't judge the person by the story U heard.
Laughter is the smile that burst
