I just wanna put the matter to be rest...

I wish that someone can just bury myself alive right now!

Like I've said before. I should always just mind my own business and crap. Ah whatever...




Just met nzm to return back his stuff. Headed to his working place, then chat abt it and then went back home. I am happy to meet him again since we've been too busy. But I hate it when I just have to give him cold attitude so that I know that I am not missing him. Much. I can't beleive that somthg just happened when I was taking the escalator back to the platform. Tears just drain down the cheek for umnpteenth times. I hate to see myself being this way. I just really wish I could have someone to volounteer and willing to bury me deep down alive. Is there anyone who are happy to see me being buried down? One moment I am happy, and another...despair. Like shoot! What kind of hell games am I playing now?

Don't U know that U have bring me back with a fragile heart,nzm? After this, U will shatter it into tiny pieces and it will neva be heal again. Ever...I should always be a person who can always pretend that all this have never happened to me. I am such a fake.