I just don't know why I wants to understand someone's feeling when I am actually aggravating the situation more! I don't understand myself why I am doing more harm than good to anyone. I want to be concern and care about them, however, they will think that I am ignoring them. Not giving them the words that they want or so. I just don't understand what they really want from me. I know I am listening them and sharing their problems with me. But, if he/she doesn't trust me, how could I make myself understand them? When I see them in despair and not knowing about something that hurts them, it hurts me more deep. I just don't know how to understand myself. Because, the more I tried, I felt like, I am hurting them more deep. In addition to that, I felt more helpless and hopeless. And when I am doing what they want me to do, they would demand another way round. And hence, I have to fall back to square one again. I don't know what he/she precisely wants from me. What did they actually want? An understanding friend? Here I am, but they are not making me understanding them. Maybe I am the one that couldn't understand them. Being an ignorant person like always. I am keen to be concern about them. But they are,too, make me misunderstood about themselves. I wish to be lightened up their burdern.

But they have always think the otherway round. Thinking that I have my own ulterior motive of helping them out. Thinking that I can't be trusted with their own secrets. Thinking that I am just being a noosey-peter or busybody whom doesn't have any better things to do. But the actual fact is just simple. To always be there for them. To always let them have the trust towards me. To enlighten up their own problems. And to just understand them better. Not to assumed that I have nothing else to do. I just can't seem to understand why or what they want from me in the end. I feel so perplexed about him/her. They could just try to be more direct towards me instead of grieving all by themselve and playing a guessing game with me. Maybe. I shall just assumed that I am not doing good for them. Instead, I am doing more harm fo them. It seems that in the end, it all back to me. Hence, I will be blame for not understanding their own situation. How?

I think I am just doing myself more harm than good.

Talk about myself being selfish. Always lookforward to people or friends to cheer me up.I am truly appreciate their effort. However, when they are in need, I have failed to do my part in making them happy once again. Seriously, I am selfish. I tried to understand their situation. But when I did, they seem to make it the other way round. Which is which now? What are their main problems? Which one they actually want to share with? I just wish that I could read their minds even before they share it to me. That way, I could easily understand them better. Maybe, I should just stay away from anyone so as to really ensure that they are not hurt. Especially if I am the main one to be blamed. Ya Allah