I know that I should be in bed early especially when I had been terribly sick today. But instead, what did I do now?
Waiting. Firstly, I have no idea what or why I am waiting for whom or what.
But as soon as I realised, I am waiting for him. Yes, I can't deny that sometimes I do miss this one friend of mine. Especially when I am sick. Usually whenever I was sick, he would be the one that accompanied my night thru phonecall. But not this time.
I had expect this to happen. Because of my own actions in the past. Now, I get the 'medicine'... It's too late to bring him back. Cause I know, I deserved this very much.
I sometimes do wonder how has he been doing. Whether he is fine,whether he is happy,whether he still sad about his old past, whether he needs a listening ear, whether he needs a stress reliever, whether he needs a girl-buddy, or whether...he misses me, whether he still furious about me, whether he hates me more...AND MANY MORE!!
Seriously, sometimes, it does makes me goes nuts. Especially when I am still feeling unwell. I know. I have no rights to be thinking this way. I have no rights to take control over his life. Maybe I don't mind him doing so. Cause, sometimes I feel that I can't do things without a bestfriend behind me. A bestfriend that I had found whom understands me besides Iylia.
I guess I shan't have any regrets because I am the one that kills him deep.
I don't deny that I loved you. Loved you like my own brother kinda thing. But I guess You used to misunderstood that love with different kinds of love...
Syafiqah
20First
Lil missy @ NP
Ignorant,NOT arrogant
Imma laughing box :B
I don't get easily impressed.
Staying strong and high
So be nice,cause I bite.
WiseWords
Happiness last longer than sadness.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Cherish your loved ones before too late.
Things last longer when U least expect it.
Pain makes U become stronger.
Always plan nothing
Smile is another way to show love.
Always expect nothing
Obstacles made u stronger in long run.
Don't judge the person by the story U heard.
Laughter is the smile that burst
