I feel so miserable. Heck, I've been having this feeling ever since the new term starts. Almost very night, my eyes will reddened. Almost every night before bed, I tried pray for a strong heart and will power. But the more I tried, the more I feel fatigue.
I feel that I am ungrateful towards myself and people around me. Especially the people whom are always been there for me. And one of them will be Ms Ruby. I can see that she is trying so hard to make us distress every time before her lessons start. I feel happy when I am in her class. With her ways, I was very confident of preparing for my Mission. But the more I tried to be strong, my heart and mind starts to become weak again. I feel that I have been relying upon othas instead of being independent like I've used to be. I feel that I should not depend on others now. I have to go through this on my own. Without any assistance of anybody other than me,my parents and Allah.
I don't wish to cry. I don't wish to be weak again. Every time I tried, I started to feel that I am falling flat back down to square one again. What is wrong with me this yr? What,precisely, is stopping me to become strong? Could it be because of my granny's gone? It should not be tt way. Cause I know that is very impossible.
I have no idea why I am this way. I hope that I will throw this feeling off and start to pull up my socks again. InsyAllah.
Syafiqah
20First
Lil missy @ NP
Ignorant,NOT arrogant
Imma laughing box :B
I don't get easily impressed.
Staying strong and high
So be nice,cause I bite.
WiseWords
Happiness last longer than sadness.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Cherish your loved ones before too late.
Things last longer when U least expect it.
Pain makes U become stronger.
Always plan nothing
Smile is another way to show love.
Always expect nothing
Obstacles made u stronger in long run.
Don't judge the person by the story U heard.
Laughter is the smile that burst
