This year. I've gone through many shits than sweet. Almost everyday, I will feel demoralized even before my day start. Many things happen. But I know that I am the person that could not ignore with things around me. Not to say things that does not even involved in me. I tried to be more ignorant so that I can focused more on my Mission. But I am in denial. The more I tried to be ignorant, the more they,my loved ones, want my attentions. I don't feel pressurized,though. That is the good thing. unfortunately, I have to go through many things besides my Mission.
I am not perfectionist,blatantly. But many high expectations from my loved ones have give me more pressure though I know that somehow, they are actually encouraging me to go further for a brighter future ahead of me. I don't deny that I do feel that giving up is the way to end and stop this. But, to disappoint and break their promises that I had made before towards them, just tells me that I must strive on and be strong. I do not want their face to be sad for my own daft mistake that I'd did. I just cannot face it if they were not happy and especially I was the real cause that had made them sad. I love to see them smile. And I wish that I am the real reason that will make them happy.
I don't deny that I am tired. Both physically and mentally. Physically is because, I've been lack of sleeping due to mugging and burning the midnight oil due to my Mission. I don't mind sacrificing my own sleeping hours. Mentally tired is because, I have been tired of the feeling of giving up. I am tired because, my feelings has always been hurt too many times by my own self. I am just so sick of being pressured,sometimes. I know everyone will have to go through hardships before the success come. I can't deny that the feeling of tired comes in because of the mindset itself. I can't deny that the feeling of tired comes in because I am sick of studying sometimes. I can never deny that sometimes, I don't have to go through all these pressure. I don't deny that sometimes I am very weak without me realizing it.
I just wish that I can really do it! I can do it! So that the promise that I've made towards my loved one are not meant to be broken.
I don't wish to be broken like how I used to be like the years I was still young.
Syafiqah
20First
Lil missy @ NP
Ignorant,NOT arrogant
Imma laughing box :B
I don't get easily impressed.
Staying strong and high
So be nice,cause I bite.
WiseWords
Happiness last longer than sadness.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Cherish your loved ones before too late.
Things last longer when U least expect it.
Pain makes U become stronger.
Always plan nothing
Smile is another way to show love.
Always expect nothing
Obstacles made u stronger in long run.
Don't judge the person by the story U heard.
Laughter is the smile that burst
