I've not been updating ALOT for this month! wahahaha don't wish to blame on ths..
Many things have happen. But mostly, it's the good ones that are still kept neatly in my memory and heart.
I wanna recap on smthg actually... This yr, I don't really enjoyed much for my birthday. Mainly because, I'm feeling empty and lost because of that nightmare that happened last yr. I feel that my bday isn't special anymore. Many wishes from people. But still, I have the feeling of emptiness. What is wrong? Isn't happiness the key to everything? I wanna be happy. But where is that precious feeling of mine gone to? I feel dread when that day have came by. The more I tried to avoid, the more it chased me. The more I pretend nothing happened, the more it was being revealed. Right after harsh day in school for that day, another thing happened at home. A party. I couldn't believe that mum would ever do that for me. Yes,i appreciated alot. But how can I be ignoring it while people ard me wants me to be cheerful? And worst come after that. I dreamt abt granny. I don't wish to remember abt it at all. I don't wish to have that event anymore. The last thing I wanna wish is for me to be a faithful daughter and successful future ahead of me. I wanna be STRONG. Stronger than last yr. I wish to do better for my O level than I did for my N level. Now I know. The achievement I've done last was a nothing compared to this yr. It's much more crucial. It is so blatant if I can make it strong if I have the support frm U,fren. I wish U to stay. Just for me as Ur friend.
Didn't go to school cause I couldn't move a muscle due to painful cramp I've got. Good thing is, I managed to wake up like ard 1100. Headed slowly to polyclinic to get MC and med. I hate gg to doctor. Especially for today! That jerk pressed my stomach hard till i almost gonna shout "Pain lah U,idiot!! Stop pressing very hard can or not?!!!" Like seriously man. I feel regret after going into the room! WTH.. And stop giving me that sh*t face that says don't-waste-my-fcking-time-and don't-bother-to-come-here-again- face! WTH seh! what kinda service have U gave me,huh? Shitto!! Dah lah tue! Gi jaga cucu kat rumah sudah!! EEEE!!!
Syafiqah
20First
Lil missy @ NP
Ignorant,NOT arrogant
Imma laughing box :B
I don't get easily impressed.
Staying strong and high
So be nice,cause I bite.
WiseWords
Happiness last longer than sadness.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Cherish your loved ones before too late.
Things last longer when U least expect it.
Pain makes U become stronger.
Always plan nothing
Smile is another way to show love.
Always expect nothing
Obstacles made u stronger in long run.
Don't judge the person by the story U heard.
Laughter is the smile that burst
