all i can say is,
something is really bother me alot.
and its haunting my feelings down. N level is haunting me too.. Its in TWO months time.
i must carry on being strong. and i don't deny that i am turning weak. i need that someone to pull me up.
and i feel like im lying to my own self. im not regarding myself as a FAKER. pls no.
I hope God shows me the right path for me.
i have to prove myself and others that i can pass!!! insyallah. i just need someone. someone that can make me stronger.
and i know i have to be independent. but i don't deny that these feeling is just frm my ego side of me.
and i must not deny that my heart had really turn into stone. and no one can soft it back. i've lost my key in my heart. lost really far away that no one, not even ONE, can find it. except for me.
and i don't think i wanna find my key in my heart at all. I will just let it be. i don't wanna fall in love again.
as i know that i have a lot of commitments to complete and i'm not really good when it comes to love. haha. right.thats true!!
i m just afraid of being in love again. but maybe due to phobia. many things ard me had taught me lessons abt love.
but i know, a person who with experience and mistakes will get more stronger in the nxt relationships.
i am not saying i am afraid of getting hurt,u see. cause i am not like that at all. but i am just afraid of seeing my loved ones leaving me all by myself....
and the last thing i know is, my heart had turn into stone...no ONE can soft it back.
