WARNING:This post will be lengthy.So it is to be advice that readers will be bored abt what i had bottled things up in my heart.So,it might bored you to death when you half way reading it.Apologies for that.
Does my life always have to be full of sufferings in this heart and soul of mine?What did i do really wrong to anyone in the pasts that i got all this tortures?Is Allah trying to test on how i really can cope any situations or difficulties??I really think that i can't take it anymore.Yes.I am very weak.I am really in the doldrums for my own actions that now,its really me to be blame.
How i really wish that my heart is not weak and as strong as stone so that i can overcome any problems anyone or me are having...I really think that my mind/brain is going dead for this problem of URS...Pls give me some time to help yOu.I promised to yOu before.That I will help u and settled some things for yOu.Pls...I have made a promise.And my mindset is easy.Every promise that i had made,I will or try my very best to fulfill it.I don't make stupid empty promises.I made all promises to be logically fullfilled.
Pls also bear this in UR mind.I help yOu with absolutely NO intentions of yOu paying me back. I help yOu whole-heartedly as i regard yOu for who yOu really are. Nobody are perfect.Including me.YoU too.yOu made mistakes.So do I.And sometimes,we ppl may not even realised that we repeating the same old stupid mistakes again.Don't yOu ever think that I am stronger than yOu are.Please.All women are weak inside.yOu should be stronger than me as yOu will some day be the 'head' of your future.I am neither strong nor weak.I am just an average simple girl that will someday makes mistakes and hurt people ard me without having intentions on doing so.So readers,keep away frm me.
Even if yOu did hurt me,i had realised something actually.Which is:I don't have any tears drooling down on my cheeks anymore.It is either i cried due to missing my late grandfather or due to watching some dramas...I don't cry for boys nomore...but yet,I know someday it will happen again.But not in the meantime.For now,I should feel stronger.So that yOu know that yOu can't hurt me like yOu used to.And i have the rights to do any harsh thing towards yOu if yOu really did put the limits on me.I know and realised that i am the different girl than yOu knew before.But bear this,I change because of what yOu had done and 'teach' me to be stronger person.
I won't shed my tears just because of any boys had pull me down...That won't be me at all.I am just sick of love and the reminiscences i had for the past few months and recently.My life is not a drama.I know URS aren't too.That is why i can believe in yOu.But what will yOu think if i had really know another side of the story too??What do yOu think i should do and to balance it to make the story right and can be understood easily?I can just listen and maybe 'witness' everything ard me.But i have absolutely no rights on choosing which side i have to be.Cause,each of the story has its own negative and positive sides.And maybe,if i did come to my sense,i can only give some advices and tips to yOu.But its UR choice on whether to choose if yOu think is the best for yOu or the other way round.
Pls strive strong and always think positive and throw away all ur strong negative thoughts of UR far from yOu in order to achieve UR dreams and goals.Pls...This is the only golden opportunity yOu have that has align right infront of ur eyes.Grab that chance and don't lose it.Keep it deep in UR heart...Pls.If my words did hurt or offended yOu when i adviced yOu,i did not doing it intentionally.My thought was to wake yOu up and getting yOu step to the ground flatly.Don't hanging there without any strings or safety.I really understands that UR situations used to be complicated.But its up to yOu to change it or leave it hanging that way.That is why yOu are still afraid of making the differences in UR life.
You don't dare and afraid of making differences.As yOu may think that yOu will be making the bad consequances.Pls wake up frm UR dream.Or i might call it a nightmares of URs.Its not worth it on pondering it and yet,yOu are not making an effort to change or making any differences in UR life.You have to change as UR age number is increasing year after year.Don't think that i can't go away frm UR life.I can be gone anytime Allah wants to take me away.What if i really gone one day?How are yOu going to live ur life?Would it still be miserable or yOu going to be success in ur future and ur goals ahead of yOu??
You keep making me wonder how yOu will be without me as UR listening ear girl or the girl who already knows almost everything abt yOu.I don't know if yOu should really be glad if I am here for yOu.I am afraid that yOu will realy fall down flat again.I think that yOu should not totaly rely on me fully.You should try to be Mr independent.So that yOu can overcome any problems and situations yOu really are having.I don't want to be blame if one day I am not there for yOu,yOu will be suffering and not leading to a happy life.I really hope it won't happen one day.
I really hope that I can heal UR heart fully and then i can lead on my happy life of my own.I don't care if i am hurt now.Cause,to me i don't wanna see others hurt right infront or at the back of my eyes.Pls.Trust me and don't put high expectations on me curing yOu fully though.I will try my best on fulfilling my promise that i had gave to yOu.
bye...
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