ERGH!!!My heart is aching!!!!!!!!!Pls...Someone help me!!): ..
Why must i be the one to suffer evrything this yr??I really realised that I have done much hurt to everyone i loved than doing the good thing...I am not making them happy..I m such a shit for this!!!Shitto me!!!Why am i so selfish and making pple angry wherelse i wanna help them.But everytime i did,it will turn the other way round!!As in,turn out that I am making the situations much worst than making it settled.=__=
People ard me keep accusing me blindly of getting her into trouble and thinking that i am the one who is influencing her to be rebel.WTH...I have no rights on doing so okay!And it is her choice on which path to choose.Not me!!I am just here to help ppl ard and get the shit problems outta here.Maybe I shouldn't be here in the first place lar...
What rights do I have to make her becoming like tht?pls...And this friend guy of mine is telling me not to be stress??WTH??!!How on earth am I gonna be stress-free if all this happened unexpectedly?Haix...I guess i better be focusing alot in my studies than thinking of this shit stuff.Haix...I am not doing good for anyone.So people,keep a distance away from me.I am no good.Though I am not trying to do harm to anyone purposely...
Sometime I just wish that one day i get knock down by a vehicle and I will be the one who is suffering from losing all the memories.!! I bet my life would be easier and I won't remember all the bad moments that i've been through..Gosh...To think back again,will i suffer more or will my loved ones who are going to suffer?As in,are they gonna be feeling so low that I can't remember them at all?...Man...To think back,it is a selfish kinda thing to do or to wish on.But,even though I am okay,they are not happy too.There will be miserables that are lablelling on their forehead,you see...gosh..I think i better have time on my own to think back and to find another side of my soul...ZOMG...
Chiawz
