updates...
Wednesday, February 27, 2008 / 12:47 pm
updating..........I am the top 3 for the chemistry!!OMG!!siriously!!I got 36 for it..I thought it would be Jack cause his is much better than mine!!wahlau!!I thought it was a mistake but the tcher says no...I stood there for few secs,and some asking abt my marks..Man I am happy but I am sad too cause ppl ard me will think I will be boastful and showing off ard the class...I try to act as normal as i can and not telling them as tt will makes me feel so bad abt it..sigh..I passed.Allhamdulilah.But I am not really sure on telling my marks to my parents as i don't wanna see thier reactions of unsatisfactions.I hate the way they react on me..It will always bring impact on me.So before anything happens,its better I take a step backword.Let them see it without me telling them..I am not being rude or something.I am trying to do what is best for me before anything happens...hmm...To me,this CT is just the beginning towards how far I did for my studies.there are more obstacles lining up in front of me now..
Okeh I don't really know the reasons why I am not happy abt it right now.Cause I feel that everytime I did improve,some pple will start to 'challenge' me to do better or maybe to them,I just did 'so-so'...wth..I hate being challenge that way.Its like...ugh....I can't describe with words right now...Its everything I did,it won't satisfy them though I am...NOW,I am going to take in the challenge and prove all those ppl that I can do it better than what they think I can!!Man!!Don't think all that comments of u ppl will pull me down!!Infact,it is making me stronger.I don't want any negative remarks to affect me.NO MATTER WHAT!!hahaha...thats me if U wanna know!!hate being challenged!!hahaha
Anyway,this morning on my way to meet nana to go sch together,I 'bump' into her damn ex!!damn!!damn!!I am so regret not warn her tt her ex is on the same stn as ours.And so,thats where her pain starts to bleed back as her thoughts were flashback abt him..Man...I am so sorry Nana...I promise,if I see him in advance,I will keep u update and warn u.I don't wanna see u hurt as u remembered abt ur past...THOUSANDS OF APOLOGIES from me... After that,while walking towards our sch,and we are chatting and blabbing abt and suddenly,I saw a BIG tree LIZARD!!lol..and what else we did instead of running??hahaha...Its a very funny incident happened in the morning..Hahaha...it makes my day actually!!hehe
Went home alone and Alvin bump onto me and then we walk and talk abt schools and stuffs...haha..missed my last yrs classmates alots!!): ...I am still a lil sad tt I can't be together with them now.Even me and Nana is not as close as the old times as we are busy with our own stuffs and schools...I MISS ALL OF U!! boohoo...I guess life must goes on as everythings will change.And it will change naturally without anyone noticing it actually...Hmm....I just wish that time will stop and freeze at all the good moments and fast forward the time when it comes to nightmares..sigh...I wish i have tt type of remote control.Or maybe I can 'invent' it...Wahaha..crapola of me starts again!!wahaha!!!oh well i'll end here for today...And to those who failed or didn't succeed,carry on ur hard work and try to improve more.U may succeed if U keep on striving till the end.Don't ever lose hope on to success..It always takes time to see the changes.Take me for example,even though i didnt succeed last yr,I try not to give up.Cause giving up is not in my dictionary at all...GOOD LUCK FOR THE NEXT TEST OR EXAMINATIONS!!(:
chiawz!!
