stressing me out...
Saturday, February 16, 2008 / 7:39 am
hey there!
haix...I am so stress out by my mum naggings today.she keep forcing me go docter and have a X-ray on me.WTH!! I am okay,mum.Healthy as I can be.Pls stop worrying all that.haix...hE has mad me angry to the maximum limits already. stop thinking abt U getting hurt wherelse ppl ard U are hurt as u are.
U have test my patience to the limits already. must u really think abt Ur damn thoughts and not others?? i wanna have fun with you.But ur damn memories have stop that.Come on lah..life have to move on you know.Ure not the only ones are suffering in this damn wolrd.Infact,there are more pple that has worst stiuations than U DO!!Wake up from that damn nightmares of urs.If i can do it,so can U lah...I can't believe u are this weak!
I started to feel that U are a total stranger to me.So sudden to enter in my world.So sudden that i have the sincerity to help u as a friend.But is this what i get in fucking return?In fact i don't need anything in return!! And adding more miseries in ur LIFE??wth!!I feel like i didn't do a good job on to heal ur wounded heart.
Why must that unfair part of U conquer U??It seems unfair to me but i just don't care that thoughts at all...Pls don't be stupid...Ure older than me and yet ure weak...sigh...I have given u many chances like what u gave me when i'm in a wrong.But at least I try to avoid on loosing that golden chance..But do U have the guts to even TRY?!! I dunnoe,cause I feel like I'm a friend with a stranger whom I love before.A stranger who shed away my tears. A stranger whom I can rely on when I'm down.Now i'm down,my first thought is not u anymore.Cause I know u have ur own problems to settle and i'm helping U with it andt i dun want to put on burden to ur shoulders anymore.And i remember once u told me when I really need U.And yet more wounds I got.Can't forget abt him and yet U said that I am ATTENTION SEEKER!!what is that man...this tells me that I can't rely on u anymore.that I can't really tell U my problems as much as u told URS...do U think its fair???I realy hate it when there is silence in our night calls...It tells me that u dun wanna tell me anything in ur mind anymore and that I am a boring-dull- girl-nxt-door type of person.If u don't think that way,I feel like I am the dull person.pls...just spill out everything cause I can't tell whether u have problems or not.I am not mind reader,mind U! If I ask u have any prob,u will say that I'm over-concern.YES!I guess thats what I am to U!! U are totally wrong actually.I'm just concern abt U is because u have the problems with ur own miseries okay!!sigh...wtf larh...pls don't make me feel that ure really are an OUTSIDER in my life.I really miss the old U. I know the fact that pple will change.But ure are changing not to be a better person!In fact its miserable..I really can't see u becoming like that.): ...It really makes me sad. sigh...I will always pray that Allah will give the right path back and not to look back to ur past.Insyallah...if God will.for now i just wan to be alone for a while.I wanna make u heal by ur wounded heart.I will cure U or nurse u without any thought of other feeligns in my heart.I really Miss the Old YOU....
oh well...change into new blogskin.hehe...just to past down the slooow time..hehe...very tired now...need a rest..chiaw!!
