Does life always have to be unfair to me??What had I done totally wrong until i got this sorrows??Am i too soft-hearted that ppl ard me misunderstood things for what i have done good for them??Am I too unfit to get back the love from someone i knew before?Or am i just blind and clap with only a hand?Do i really deserved these even though i remember that i DIDN"T do any wrong??Must I really have deep cuts in my heart that it will permanantly bleed and will never heal back?Maybe I am a jinx in love life.Maybe I should always be suffering instead of being happy with everyone that i really love?shittos...
I have to let u go i guess...I don't want my heart to be hurt by U again.But I will try not to avoid U and help U when U need.Otherwise,don't even think of entering my miserable world again.Since the start of the year,u actually did change.I don't know whether U realise that or not. But i did.& its too obvious.If u don't want me to enter,y in the first place u said all those fucking stupid sweet damn words to me??I have always trying my best on not to give up on u due to ur attitude.But its seems that u shouldn't give another chance.Do u really think U deserve to be in my world?!!Don't even bother to think of THAT!!Should u think U should be given another chance in the first place?I am unsure abt that...
Tears now are not shed away by U as what u had promised me before.Now it was shed by myself without U really understand the real facts abt it.u dun even care abt me.So do u think it's really fair towards me?sigh...common test are coming..so pls...don't add in more burden or problems to my shoulders again..I am too weak right now...I am not ur Guardian Angel or counsellor as what u called me before.I am in confuse state right now...Pls give me space to let me breathe and give me time to think abt my own self.Like what dee had say,there are more guys better than U...but is that true??I dun think I can do it anymore.I am phobia abt love.I am scared...I am confused.I am suffocated.Pls let me breathe once again.):
